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Let It Be

01 Dec 2010 Leave a Comment

by Charlie in philosophy, photography, sadness and everything along with it

A few days ago I told myself maybe if I do retail therapy I’d feel a little more okay, or that it would somehow fill the void from losing a brother. I wanted to buy Dexter novels, because he was the one who introduced the show to us, and shoes because—well, I love shoes. But last night I’ve decided to immortalize my brother’s memory through a tattoo instead. Originally, I wanted to have the word “martian” tattooed on my forearm.

But when I woke up today, for some reason, the song “Let It Be” by The Beatles was stuck in my head even though I hadn’t played the song for weeks, maybe even months. And when I got to the tattoo shop and the artist asked me what design I want done, I just blurted out “let it be” without even thinking. It took a split-second to realize that I like it better than the original “martian” I had planned.

And now I have those three words stamped permanently with bright red ink on my forearm. Maybe this was what I was meant to have. Incidentally, today’s the first of December, a significant date for a lot of people. But aside from it being the official start of Christmas season, today is also Kuya’s 9th day here, plus today we were finally able to get his death certificate. That’s why I really wanted the tattoo done today, I feel like today’s the right time.

I’m happy with the result, even though it turned out a little bigger than how I originally wanted it. This one’s for Kuya. It will always be a reminder and an assurance that everything will be okay eventually if we just let it be.